it shall set you free etc etc

[deathkid]

» POST: a top level for your character(s) » RESPOND: to other characters ICly. your characters are now trapped in an elevator together. » UH OH: neither character can lie. » ADDITIONAL, OPTIONAL COMPLICATIONS: at player discretion characters may also... a. be unable to remain silent when asked questions b. be unable to speak around the truth when answering c. be compelled to reveal truths/secrets unprompted THE POWER OF THE ELEVATOR COMPELS YOU.

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[somnioergosum]

Good thing I don't live there.

[The Barns is close though. About half an hour away close.]

I think about what'll happen when you find someone you like better.

[Ronan rolls his eyes at himself. He's going to have to lips together.]

[antietam]

[ It's all Henrietta to him. He's about to say that when Ronan distracts him. ]

What? When? [ That's upsetting. ] So you're not even giving me a chance to leave.

There's no one I'll like better when no one could be better than you, you asshole.

[somnioergosum]

No! Jesus, just 'cause I want you to stay doesn't mean I'm telling you to give up on college.

[Oh, Christ. Forget a stapler he just needs to rip out his voice box.]

Fuck. I want you to go, too. I want you to just--

[He gestures vaguely.]

Do what you need to to be happy and I think I can't give you everything you want. I'm afraid you'll meet someone who can.

[He's shoving his leather wristband into his mouth and biting down now.]

[antietam]

[ Adam takes a breath to calm himself down and not start a fight. This is Ronan being forced to tell the truth. It's a good thing. ]

You already give me everything I want. Christ, I'm afraid that you'll meet someone better too but―I trust you. I keep planning out our future because everything I want is just... you. You, me, Opal, Chainsaw all together.

I wish you'd come with me, though. [ He definitely should have stopped before that last sentence. ]

dw why did you betray me

[somnioergosum]

I wouldn't go to college if they paid me.

[A thought that probably crossed his brother's mind.]

[antietam]

[ That gets a snort from him. ]

No, I meant living with me. We could take trips down to the Barns whenever, but... [ He seems like he's trying to hold something back, but he can't. ]

But you're the only thing that's ever made me happy and I'm afraid of what it'll be like without you.

[somnioergosum]

[Ronan has no idea what to say to that. The only thing? And that's the actual truth?]

I'll visit every weekend if I have to.

[And then he spills more of his own truths.]

I don't want to leave the Barns again. It almost killed me when he took my home from me. I can't lose it again.

[antietam]

[ Adam very much doesn't want to say anymore but it's no use. ]

I don't want to live there. [ There it is. He's been avoiding that for forever. ] I like the Barns, but everything else...

The thought of staying near Henrietta for the rest of my life depresses the hell out of me.

[somnioergosum]

[Ronan has always known this. Adam hates Henrietta. He's only ever dreamed of getting away. But he also hoped that somehow he would be enough for Adam to change his mind.

It hurts like hell to know that he was wrong.]

That's why I'm so fucking scared you'll leave me. I don't know how this will work if you can't stand to live in my home. Whenever I think about losing you or the barns, all I can see is how fucking miserable I'll be.

[antietam]

It doesn't have to be like that. [ He wishes he could end this conversation or comfort Ronan. Talking about this is making his chest ache. ]

I won't make you lose the Barns. Why can't it be a vacation home?

[somnioergosum]

It can be. But Jesus, it's all I have of my parents and the life we had. And that fucking will took everything from me. It's mine again and I can't give that up, not yet.

It's different here. I know nothing can happen at home. No one will take it. It's safe and waiting for me. And I miss it like hell, but I don't have to worry about losing it all again.

[antietam]

I know. [ He really does. Even Adam used to wish he could go home. Not because he liked it, but because it was home. ]

We have time. Here and while I'm in school. I just... want to make a new home with you. One for all of our memories.