it shall set you free etc etc

[deathkid]

» POST: a top level for your character(s) » RESPOND: to other characters ICly. your characters are now trapped in an elevator together. » UH OH: neither character can lie. » ADDITIONAL, OPTIONAL COMPLICATIONS: at player discretion characters may also... a. be unable to remain silent when asked questions b. be unable to speak around the truth when answering c. be compelled to reveal truths/secrets unprompted THE POWER OF THE ELEVATOR COMPELS YOU.

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[absolutperfection]

You’re going to find out that I’m an addict who’s afraid to let anyone close because I know they’ll realize that I’m not good enough for them and that they can do a whole hell of a lot better.

[There’s no way he just said that out loud right? He slowly tips his head to look at Nico.]

I’m the pathetic excuse of a punchline.

[deathkid]

[ oh no tj. ]

Your past doesn't matter to me. None of that matters. I just want someone who will return my feelings because I have a bad habit of falling to those who won't love me back.

I find you amazing and sexy. That's enough for me.

[absolutperfection]

I want someone who will love me back. Despite how messed up I am. Who supports me and won’t tell me that everything we had meant nothing. That I’m disgusting and that they were disgusted each time we were together.

It might be now but you won’t always feel that way. I don’t know how to stop thinking like this.

[deathkid]

I would never feel disgusted by you. If only you knew what it's been like to be me. I've been shunned and hated for what I am, so that you like me means a lot. I want you to feel loved too. And I would support you. I really think we could be good for each other.

[absolutperfection]

I want to believe you. I need to. I’ll try but I can’t promise that my head will let me. I don’t understand how they could hate you. You have no control over what you are.

I do like you and you would be good for me. You didn’t push me to drink or get high at the club, almost as if you knew how hard it would be to say no and that I’d hate myself after. You didn’t force me to tell you what I wasn’t ready to share. I want to push you away. Tell you that you’re not my type. That we can fuck but that’s it. I don’t want that. I’m afraid I’m going to say it anyway and I’m a good actor. I could make you believe me.

[deathkid]

Drinking and drugs will only make things worse. I want you to be happy. I want you to be whole. I know what it's like to be broken and forced to admit something when I'm not ready. I don't want the same for you. I figure you'll be honest with me when you're ready. Aren't you being honest now?

Please don't push me away. I couldn't bear it. I've been pushed away so many times already.

[absolutperfection]

I’m being honest now and I’m not sure why I’m saying what I am. I don’t usually do this. I want to tell you but it’ll just end things sooner and I’m so damn selfish. I want this to last.

I don’t want to. I’m convinced that I need to. Don’t let me. You’ll know when I try.

[deathkid]

It's probably magic of some sort. Either way, I'm the same. There are so many things I want to say but shouldn't. I want this to last too, but I drive people away sometimes.

But if you try to run from me, I'll only chase after you.

[absolutperfection]

[TJ snorts, bumping against Nico’s side. His tone is soft and amused.]

Creepy fucker. I’ll hold you to that.

[deathkid]

[ that just prompts a smirk and nico returns the bump before reaching out to trail cool fingers along tj's jaw. ]

I swear it on the Styx. That kind of oath might not mean much to you, but for people like me, it's binding.

[absolutperfection]

[Maybe it’s the catharsis after all that sharing or how comfortable he is around Nico, but TJ doesn’t feel like running off after so much forced honesty. He leans into Nico, eyelashes fluttering at the cool touch to his jaw.]

It means something to me cause it means something to you. Kinda feels like there’s more I should say. Think it’s my choice now, though.

[deathkid]

[ trailing his fingers along a smooth jaw, nico smiles a little. the way tj's lashes flutter makes something squirm in his gut like skeletal butterflies. ]

You don't have to say any more than you want to. I'll understand.

[absolutperfection]

[There it was. The exact perfect thing for Nico to say to inspire TJ to open up on his own.]

I was in love once, back home. He was married but it happened. Kept telling me he’d leave her. I was sober the whole time we were together. My nana, she'd like you, said it was because I’m a romantic. Having someone to focus on keeps my mind from wandering to places it shouldn’t go. My mom thinks it’s because I’m weak and I latched onto the first thing I could find to keep myself afloat.

[He shrugs.]

They were both wrong and right. I was sober because I was happy. But I made him the only thing that was making me feel that way. When he broke it off, it broke me. I had nothing to fall back on. If we do this, if we date and decide we want to try this then it can’t be like that. We both have to go in unattached and I can’t put all my cards in your hands. Does that make sense?

[deathkid]

[ nico listens quietly as tj speaks, fingers still caressing warm skin. he leans in enough to press their foreheads together before nodding. ]

It makes perfect sense. I was in love too. Twice. Each time, the other guy didn't love me back, but I'm over that. I was forced to come out of the closet before I was ready but it made me realize that when it's worth fighting for, then it's true. I'm willing to fight for this.

[absolutperfection]

[TJs grounded by the soft touch. Forehead to forehead, his own hands running down Nico's arm to link their fingers together. The moment's honest. Sweet. New for him and he doesn't actually want it to stop.]

Well I- [The elevator dings. TJ glances over sharply.] I am too. Let me walk you home?

[deathkid]

[ there's something so natural about holding hands with tj that nico finds a little surprising. it feels comfortable when normally he shies away from such pda ( except when on the dance floor ). but here it's... nice. he smiles slightly and nods. ]

Sure. Mind you, I share it with four other people, but at least it's a big place.