[The hurt on his face is easy for her to see and she has to stop herself from reaching out.]

I did! I wanted you, Darkness and all because the Darkness nor the Light can give you what you wanted. I wanted you, Ben Solo or Kylo Ren, whatever you wanted to call yourself, I wanted you. I wanted the man who knows loneliness as well as I do, and wanted something other than ruling.

[A tear falls down from her face.]

Nor have I.