I loved you! [ She hadn't meant for it to come out so strong, a burst of painful sound that broke at the edges from the force of the emotion behind it. Truthfully, she hadn't meant for it to come out at all, and her eyes widened when she realized it had. But there was no taking it back now. ]

I don't know why, or how. I didn't accept it at first, I hated you because I hated myself. We weren't good together, it was destructive, but things changed. You got your soul and I--

[ She covered her face with her hands for a moment before letting her arms fall to her sides again, a lost and broken expression on her face. ] I miss you. I loved you and I miss you, but if you want me to leave you alone here, I will. I'll stay out of your way and I won't bother you.

[ It might be better that way. It hurt so much to see him and know he wasn't her Spike. ]