[ Everything about this place is weird. As much as she wanted to believe that it really was a sort of second chance for her, nothing more than an opportunity to start over and have a new, different life -- nothing was ever that easy. There had to be a catch somewhere, something sinister lurking in the dark corners, she just... hadn't found it yet. Hadn't even started looking, actually. She'd get there, though. After she figured out a few other things first.

There wasn't any point in lying to him. There are some things she'd rather he not know, but if he asked, she'd tell him. She just hoped that he didn't use any of this against her, because it would be clear if he paid attention that this wasn't an easy thing for her to talk about. His death still hurt, even with him sitting right in front of her. ]

I didn't kill you, Spike. I didn't want you to die. You-- [ She looked off to the side, her eyes finding the waitress for a moment, then a coffee pot, a plate left on the counter. Anything that wasn't him. ] You sacrificed yourself to save the world. You were a hero.