[ Sometimes she's still afraid home is something that's going to disappear. That Lenore will change her mind, that she'll screw up again somehow, that the people her aunt called in favors with will renege and she'll get hauled away from the one place she's ever felt remotely comfortable. The one place she's never had to pretend to be someone else.
So for Cam to say that. For him to mean it, because she knows he does--it's everything. For her to have not one, but two people here who would say that. It's everything. It's enough of home that maybe she can survive this whole thing intact.
She feels like he owes him. Owes him and Jeff both, and there's no way they'd accept having her in their debt. Doesn't change the fact that she feels the scales tipping and wants to do everything she can to keep them even. She wants to be worth what they give her.
(Typing and deleting, typing and deleting.) ]
I know I can't, like. I'm a moon university student living in a communal dorm, I don't have much going for me in terms of stuff I can give away, but.
Same, I guess? If there's anything I can help you with. Like with magic or anything. I will.
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[ Sometimes she's still afraid home is something that's going to disappear. That Lenore will change her mind, that she'll screw up again somehow, that the people her aunt called in favors with will renege and she'll get hauled away from the one place she's ever felt remotely comfortable. The one place she's never had to pretend to be someone else.
So for Cam to say that. For him to mean it, because she knows he does--it's everything. For her to have not one, but two people here who would say that. It's everything. It's enough of home that maybe she can survive this whole thing intact.
She feels like he owes him. Owes him and Jeff both, and there's no way they'd accept having her in their debt. Doesn't change the fact that she feels the scales tipping and wants to do everything she can to keep them even. She wants to be worth what they give her.
(Typing and deleting, typing and deleting.) ]
I know I can't, like. I'm a moon university student living in a communal dorm, I don't have much going for me in terms of stuff I can give away, but.
Same, I guess? If there's anything I can help you with. Like with magic or anything. I will.