Exactly! He's Loki. I'm not even the Norse nerd here and I know he manipulates people, he lies, and causes mischief and chaos! But you can't blame me for having doubts or being vulnerable, Billy... You can't. I've stood by you through everything.
And I get that you're scared, Billy, but you don't turn and run out! You can't fear yourself that much!
[He pauses, listening to Billy even as he tenses up, eyes narrowing. Loki is the lat person he wants to hear about right now, especially when Billy tells him about the lies. He pulls his hand away, arms crossing defensively.]
He's responsible for that monster wearing my mom's face and you're dating him? You didn't think he could tell you how to end it, that you couldn't--
[It doesn't matter. None of it's going to change anything and right now, he feels sick.] Well, I'm glad someone was here to put you back together.
[And even if his tone is rough, he does mean that. Seething or not, he can't imagine Billy being genuinely hurt or worse yet, hurting himself.
Although he does scoff a little. He'll have sympathy for Loki later, maybe, once he's calmed down. But right now? There's just a bitter little twinge that apparently Billy can sit and stroke Loki's hair and tell him it's going to be okay, but apparently not for him even if he's done just that for a year.]
So was I, Billy. My entire life was turned upside down, I watched my mom die in front of me, and our teammates, and I stayed with you. I told you everything would be okay and never asked you to do the same for me, even if it would have been nice once in a while.
[He shakes his head and lets out a tired sigh.]
I don't know... Nothing. I fell in love with a superhero who I thought was brave enough to face his fears, and I stayed with you even after you insisted being a hero ruined your life because you were everything I had left and I was glad for it. But-- I can't deal with this, Billy. With the Loki thing, or you being so scared of yourself all over again... or even worse.
[Because this is even worse than the past year as far as he's concerned, Billy running away, refusing to even go back because he's afraid he'll mess up what sounds like a sure thing.]
Hate or be angry at me for leaving or whatever, but if you can't even trust yourself... how did you expect me to? And it's kind of rich... you making me feel like an idiot for trusting Loki when you're trusting him with more than I ever did.
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And I get that you're scared, Billy, but you don't turn and run out! You can't fear yourself that much!
[He pauses, listening to Billy even as he tenses up, eyes narrowing. Loki is the lat person he wants to hear about right now, especially when Billy tells him about the lies. He pulls his hand away, arms crossing defensively.]
He's responsible for that monster wearing my mom's face and you're dating him? You didn't think he could tell you how to end it, that you couldn't--
[It doesn't matter. None of it's going to change anything and right now, he feels sick.] Well, I'm glad someone was here to put you back together.
[And even if his tone is rough, he does mean that. Seething or not, he can't imagine Billy being genuinely hurt or worse yet, hurting himself.
Although he does scoff a little. He'll have sympathy for Loki later, maybe, once he's calmed down. But right now? There's just a bitter little twinge that apparently Billy can sit and stroke Loki's hair and tell him it's going to be okay, but apparently not for him even if he's done just that for a year.]
So was I, Billy. My entire life was turned upside down, I watched my mom die in front of me, and our teammates, and I stayed with you. I told you everything would be okay and never asked you to do the same for me, even if it would have been nice once in a while.
[He shakes his head and lets out a tired sigh.]
I don't know... Nothing. I fell in love with a superhero who I thought was brave enough to face his fears, and I stayed with you even after you insisted being a hero ruined your life because you were everything I had left and I was glad for it. But-- I can't deal with this, Billy. With the Loki thing, or you being so scared of yourself all over again... or even worse.
[Because this is even worse than the past year as far as he's concerned, Billy running away, refusing to even go back because he's afraid he'll mess up what sounds like a sure thing.]
Hate or be angry at me for leaving or whatever, but if you can't even trust yourself... how did you expect me to? And it's kind of rich... you making me feel like an idiot for trusting Loki when you're trusting him with more than I ever did.