( if stopping was that easy, he would. but it's not, stopping himself from sobbing is hard but billy is trying his best, at least. takes deep breaths in, holds it for a few seconds, exhales slow. in this he's well practiced, at least. but he never lets go of teddy's hand, either. his grip may be shaky, but billy isn't willing to give it up entirely. )

I. . I wanted to stay because I was afraid to go back. ( to face that head on. billy's learned to hide less, but when he does.. ) Don't bring my family into this.

( not when it's already his fault mother took hold of his parents. )

You're the one who left first, remember? I was just--staying away.