( teddy can cry if he wants to, billy has no room to judge because tears are starting to sting the corners of his eyes, welling up and slowly falling down cheeks. he raises up a hand, wipes them away with the back of a palm to try and hide it, but-- )
All I ever wanted was you, Teddy Altman. Since the moment I met you, that's all I wanted. There's no one I missed more than you, no one I wished I could see again more than you. But I guess that was the problem, right? Because I loved you so much, clearly I was influencing you. Or made you, or--whatever. I've been trying. You're the one who left.
( he doesn't blame him for that. for leaving. not--not exactly. it's complicated. )
I--get it. I'm happy I made you feel lucky, that's all I wanted--to make you feel happy. Wanted. Loved. But how am I supposed to feel good enough for you if you can't believe in me?
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All I ever wanted was you, Teddy Altman. Since the moment I met you, that's all I wanted. There's no one I missed more than you, no one I wished I could see again more than you. But I guess that was the problem, right? Because I loved you so much, clearly I was influencing you. Or made you, or--whatever. I've been trying. You're the one who left.
( he doesn't blame him for that. for leaving. not--not exactly. it's complicated. )
I--get it. I'm happy I made you feel lucky, that's all I wanted--to make you feel happy. Wanted. Loved. But how am I supposed to feel good enough for you if you can't believe in me?