I don't know!! ( there, that gets him to raise his voice a little. eyes still on teddy's and he's angry, sure, but never at teddy. teddy's only ever tried his best, through everything. through losing his mother, through the war, cassie and jonas, through billy summoning a parasite that looked like his mother, teddy's always remained strong.

billy couldn't say the same about himself. ) I got here and everything was all messed up! I--I guess we'd been here before? You and me. But you were so much younger I guess and the me who wasn't me messed that all up, too. And I mean--I would've done the same thing, so I can't even--argue against it at all, I don't. .

( hands back to his side and he takes a few deep breaths. tries to steady himself.

it goes about as well as anticipated. ) I care about you more than I could ever put into words, Teddy. I love you, I'd--I'd do anything for you. You know that, right? I'd still be sitting in my room trying to pretend I didn't exist if it wasn't for you--several times over. If you're going back and want me to come with you I'll--I'll figure it out. I've been trying to get better. To be better. I want to be better for you. But I--I'm not, and you deserve so much more than I can give you.