[The reason isn't as clear as Ivar thinks it is. She didn't feel pity towards him. She felt something towards him, and that something made it hard for her to simply watch him go.]

I didn't want to talk about it either, but here we are.

[Sort of. They're sort of talking about it.]

Assuming you get back, but you do what you want. You always have. This is why I didn't want to get close, because when I leave, I didn't want to feel this pain--not again.

[The pain of losing someone she really cared about.]