[ It made Athelstan chuckle. Different was the best word he could think of to describe it. He had told Judith he loved her but he's not sure at all that it was true when he wasn't naked with her. What else could he have said to her spontaneous confession. He wouldn't go as far to think he had lied to her but he hadn't truly loved her.
If he had, he thinks that he would have stayed -- though, perhaps there had been love there but only there was already a love much stronger in his heart.
He looked over at Ragnar. ]
You're asking very many questions when you could be putting your mouth to other uses.
[ Still, he answers even though the question pains him somewhat and the answers seem to swirl in his head contradicting one another. ]
It is not so simple. I could ask Him for forgiveness and I could renew my vow. [ And yet, he's not sure that he wants that. Perhaps, in choosing to go back to Ragnar this time he could shed his vows as a monk. He could be a simple man and believe in his God and spend his life trying to make peace with believing that Thor and Odin and Frey and others might also be real. ]
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If he had, he thinks that he would have stayed -- though, perhaps there had been love there but only there was already a love much stronger in his heart.
He looked over at Ragnar. ]
You're asking very many questions when you could be putting your mouth to other uses.
[ Still, he answers even though the question pains him somewhat and the answers seem to swirl in his head contradicting one another. ]
It is not so simple. I could ask Him for forgiveness and I could renew my vow. [ And yet, he's not sure that he wants that. Perhaps, in choosing to go back to Ragnar this time he could shed his vows as a monk. He could be a simple man and believe in his God and spend his life trying to make peace with believing that Thor and Odin and Frey and others might also be real. ]